Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Sorry this is so short, I have not really felt up to blogging lately. I haven't felt very inspired, but I am still reading my fave blogs daily :)
It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas...
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
That is what my doctor told me on Friday when she noticed I had tears in my eyes. I did NOT get a thumbs up to start trying to conceive again..in fact, I got a big frown. For one, I gained 5lbs. FIVE freaking pounds in 6 weeks. Really? I know I haven't been perfect, but I know I have been doing better. For two, after going over my lab draw, my TSH was at 11 for November. Freaking 11.."normal" is 5! That is even after 6 weeks on Synthroid 50mg. Given this news, I was very upset. I told the Dr. that we were wanting to start trying again on this cycle and she basically looked at me like I was stupid. She said that with my hormone levels as high there is no way I'd be able to carry a healthy pregnancy. She also wants me to lose 4lbs by May which I think is obtainable if I'm strict, strict, strict. She did not recommend getting pregnant for six months.
This isn't a Death Sentence..
It is sad that when I was younger getting pregnant was my biggest fear, and now that I'm older, wiser and married not being able to have a baby and grow a family is my biggest fear. I'm sorry I haven't been posting lately, but this is about the only thing that's been on my mind. Oh yea, that and hosting my first Thanksgiving as being married for my inlaws. Yikes.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
I have a doctor's appointment on Friday. Jordan actually gets to go with me so that is a relief. This appointment is my first follow up since I've been on my thyroid medication. I'm anxious to see where my levels are after a month. J and I are ready to start trying to conceive again. We've gone back and forth so many times..should we wait til the new yer? Should we wait til I lose at least 40lbs? Should we get back on birth control? These are all things we've thrown around time and again. But really, what it comes down to is: we want a family. I'm not a very patient person, but I want to start trying when my doctor thinks I'm healthy enough to have a successful, healthy pregnancy. Hopefully we will have good news on Friday and get the thumbs up to start trying this cycle.
Happy Wednesday :)
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
"We stopped making that about a year and a half ago."
Really?! Where have I been? I was pretty disappointed. I was hoping it'd show up in my stocking this year haha.
What do you hope to find under the tree or stuffed in your stocking this year?
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
So yesterday I went to the YMCA for the first time since...the summer when J and I would go to the outside pool and soak up the sun. It's a shame that I pay for a gym membership every month and don't even use it. I just make excuses. No.More!! So yesterday I packed my lunch and dinner (since I work until 7pm) put my workout clothes in my car and went straight to the Y after work. It was hard to take a different route and not go straight home and sit on the couch..but I went. I started off slow..picked up a parenting mag and rode the bike for 20minutes. Then I went to the treadmill. I walked 1 minutes, ran 1 minutes, walked 2 minutes, ran 2 minutes..and so on. I was sweating bullets! I guess that is a good thing, but I was so exhausted afterward! Usually you get a burst of energy, right? Not me, I go home, shower and sleep.
Anyway, I actually signed up for the holiday season "Battle of the Buldge.". The weigh in is on November 14th and you have to either maintain or lose weight up to January 4th to get a tshirt. That's the plan anyway so might as well try to get a tshirt to inspire me haha.
Again, please feel free to leave comments or suggestions as I keep on this trail to a happier, healthier, skinnier me!
**A Special THANK YOU to all the Veteran's out there. Thank you for all your hard work and dedication to our Country. Happy Veteran's Day!**
Monday, November 9, 2009
This year is going to be waaay better. I'm talking lights on the outside of the house, stockings..candles, just a warm, cozy Christmas house! Jordan wants an real Christmas tree. I've never had one..but I'm always up for new traditions as we start our little family. What are your thoughts on real trees vs. artificial? I'm also ready to start shopping. I already have my mother in law, sister in law and little sister completed. We still have to shop for:
- older sister
- brother in law
- niece Ariauna
- nephew Elias
- sister in law
- nephew Lathyn
- niece Kamryn
- grandparents in law (??)
You know, I always thought buying for little kids would be easy..it is actually quite hard. I want to buy them what they need (ie. diapers, clothes) vs. what they would probably want (toys, movies, etc) so I'm trying to mix and match things. That will be a whole other blog entry!
Keep counting down until decorating time!!..oh, and that would be Thanksgiving also :)
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Anyway, I invited her to my bachlorette party 3 weeks before my wedding. I'm not a party crazy person by any means so my bachlorette "party" consisted of sitting on a patio at a restaurant with drinks. She came and then all of a sudden she orders a beer. At first I thought she ordered it for me, but I dont' even like beer..next thing I know, she is drinking a beer..at 17 weeks pregnant. Now, if that's your perogative OK, but seriously? I just had a traumatic miscarriage 5 weeks prior and you're going to drink alcohol in my presence? I don't try to be judgemental, but after that I lost a lot of respect for her. My night was pretty much ruined after that.
Fast forward 4 months: I'm over the whole drinking at my bachlorette party, I've gotten over the jealousy..now I'm just excited that her little girl is going to be here soon. Two weeks ago, in the office, we threw her a baby shower. I got her some really cute winter outfits, diapers and just some misc. stuff. I wasn't there to see her reaction when she opened the gift, but I never got a thank you card either. I never even got a "Allie, thank you for the gift!" and we are only an office away. I'm kind of shocked, because I think a verbal thank you..an email thank you..a thank you card..a thank you call..a thank you twitter..a thank you facebook status..any kind of thank you is really important. I don't think I'm out of line here.
Has anything like this ever happened to you? Am I overreacting??
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Monday, October 26, 2009
Saturday morning I woke up and picked up the house..I had my sisters and best friend over for a Mary Kay party. I like Mary Kay- but I am really not impressed with their eye shadow colors or lipstick! I was trying to find a more "fall/winter" lipstick shade. I chose raisinberry:
And it looked Brown on me!! So I couldn't decide on anything. It was good to get together with my girls though.
J's company had a Halloween party later that night so we got dressed up and went. Our costumes were very "last minute" ha..Jordan wore some velvet, paisley print pants and one of his mother's old frilly shirts. He was a mix between a hippie/woman..pretty interesting! I just wore some of J's scrubs, his nametag and surgery mask. Boring! We will have better costumes for the Halloween party we're going to this coming Saturday!
Sunday, we went to my sister's for lunch and watched the Chiefs play booo :( deep cleaned my closet and watched the Season Finale of My Antonio. I kept thinking he was going to bring Tully back :( I know the show was probably made up, but I really feel like they had true love! When she was sent home last week I actually cried! J definetly made fun of me for that. Anyway, Antonio picked Brooke. No surprise there. I wonder if they'll have a reunion show next week..cross your fingers! I will miss looking at you, Antonio!!
Just a little update, I have been on Synthroid for a week now. I can't tell any difference, but I never really felt "sick" before I found out about having Hypothyroidism. I'm only on 50mg so it will be interesting to see where my levels are in 4weeks.
I also made the decision to go back to school for the spring semester. My major: elementary education! I'm going to take night classes 12 credit hours, and work full time also. I have faith I can do it. I have a great support system from my husband and I realized last Thursday after a really bad day, that I don't want to work in insurance the rest of my life. It can be depressing. J and I are going to the college on November 6th (my bday!!) to enroll. This may also put "trying to conceive" on the back burner..but we have plenty of time to worry about that in the future. I really just want a change of pace in my life.
Happy work week, everyone!
Friday, October 23, 2009
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
So I started my medication Synthroid for the hypothroidism on Sunday. Let me tell you, I haven't had a good night sleep since. I was tossing and turning all night last night and dreaming/half awake about work! I remember waking up, very frustrated and begging God to just let me fall sound asleep. I go back for a follow up in 5 weeks. I'm still trying to be optimistic and not get too negative, but I really hope I can adjust to this medication soon.
The weekend was just all right. Friday I went to the doctor, got my hair highlighted and ran errands around town. Then I went to visit my niece and nephew, gave them baths and read them their nightly books. Then I went to visit my aunt for her Birthday because she was in town. Then it was time to go pick J up from work. After I picked him up we decided to go to Old Chicago so he could work on his beer tour. I was so exhausted after we ate so we went home and called it a night.
Saturday, my sister and I scrapbooked for about four hours. We have been working on a scrapbook for our parents for Christmas and it is coming together very nicely! Then J and I were going to go see the new Gerard Burler movie (can't think of the name) but I just didn't have enough energy to sit through a movie..I was too worried I'd fall sleep. So we went to dinner and drank a margarita. Sunday, we got up, went to brunch and a Halloween store. Still not sure what we're going to dress up as for a Halloween party we're invited to this weekend! Any ideas for a cute couples costume?? I'm still thinking about being a hippie couple...
Happy work week, everyone!
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
I am optimistic though..I'm going to my PCP on Friday to get prescribed some medicine to regulate the thyroid issue. From what I've read (yes I'm still reading) hypothyroidism is easily managed. I think she is going to put me on Synthroid?? Anyone familiar with this drug? I am anxious to speak more with my doctor regarding this hypothyroidism whatchamacallit. I should have a better update on Friday about it.
I am also getting my hair done on Friday..just a good ol' touch up on the roots and trim on the bangs. It has been over a year and I am still growing out the Victoria Beckham bob. ugh, so annoying. Well, happy hump day..whoops, I mean wednesday :)
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
These ankle boots are cute! Love the plaid and would look adorable with a few of my outfits.
Okay, that's all I have right now..of course, just being with friends and family is all I really want, but these are my 3 wishes :)
Monday, October 12, 2009
Friday, October 9, 2009
(image found on shopstyle)
Thursday, October 8, 2009
What is your favorite brand/style jean??
Update: I wasn't liking South Beach..sorry if TMI but it was making me constipated despite drinking 4 20oz bottles of water a day. And I was too tired all the time. I'm back to my good ol' Weight Watchers..5th times a charm? I'm not going to meetings..they have upped their weekly price and I know the system. I just really need to stick to it. Who's with me??
Monday, October 5, 2009
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
I went for a follow up visit with my new OB yesterday. Luckily J was able to take off work and go with. I needed his support. I went to the visit thinking "Okay, birth control here we come." but I couldn't bring myself to do it. My new Dr. was the absolute sweetest and caring medical professional I've ever encountered. We checked in for the appointment and literally two minutes later or so the actual Dr., not the CMA or nurse, came out in the waiting room to personally take us back and introduce herself.
She said "I am so sorry this has happened to you guys twice. I specialize in high risk pregnancy and be with you every step of the way." Her kind words actually made me tear up because I am so tired of hearing the saying "These things just happen." That phrase has made me angry..bitter. Anyway, she offered suggestions on what we are going to do next time around. As soon as I'm pregnant again she's going to start me on progesterone and track my hcg levels weekly to make sure I am on the right track. When I asked her if we were going to have to wait for the 7-8 week mark to see her again she said "NO! and if anyone at the front desk gives you any problems about coming in earlier then call my nurse and it will get back to me." I was so reassured. Even J was very pleased. I left the office a little more positive and confident in our future family. I have gone months where I just absolutely hate my body and am a little upset with God. There will be nights where I'm just laying in bed, saying my prayers and I think 'God..why would you do this to me and Jordan? We are not living off the government; we have our house, cars, jobs; we made this baby out of love and faith, but yet it is still taken away.' but yet these things just happen. One of life's mysteries I suppose. Back to the drawing board for a successful pregnancy :)
Monday, September 28, 2009
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
I've done Weight Watchers (4 times!!) before and did lose 19lbs, but then my sister (who was my partner) became pregnant and quit. I tried to do it by myself, but wasn't motivated at that point in my life. I'm motived now, because I have gained some "marital bliss" LBS!
I think I will update my progress on Mondays because that is when I plan on weighing. I will also post my favorite South Beach recipe of the week. I will leave you with a recipe: (sorry I forgot to take pics when I was cooking!)
1lb. Ground Beef
1 can refried beans
2 tbsp. chilli powder
1 tbsp garlic powder
2/3 low fat cheddar cheese
Preheat oven to 450. In cassarole dish, coat refriend beans and bake for 15 minutes. Brown ground beef with onions and green pepper. Season with spices. Remove cassarole dish and top beans with ground beef mixture. Top with cheese and bake for additional 10 minutes.
Very easy!! I liked that the refried beans acted as a crust. DH loved it too and he's still kind of apprehensive of the no carb diet. Wish me luck this weekend :)
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Monday, September 21, 2009
Seriously? Okay, there are a few better like:
But nothing really has a specific spark that I was hoping to get out of our wedding photos. Oh well..I guess that is what I get when try to cut corners, price wise, when it came to photography. A girl I went to High School with did offer to tweak some pictures, free of charge, so I'm going to take her up on the offer and compensate her accordingly. Brides, do your research when it comes to photography!