Ellen

Two weeks ago, my husband and I were at our local hospital suffering our second miscarriage. When I say suffering, I mean suffering..aka worst day of my life. I was in a black hole and refused to see the light at the end of the tunnel despite what anyone/anything said/did. We were waiting in the waiting room on the results that my hCg levels had plumpeted to 20 when I started to watch the Ellen Degeneres show. I've always liked Ellen..she's witty, down to earth and seems like a well rounded person. I am hardly able to see her show because of my work schedule (and can't figure out that DVR stuff) but when I was watching I just realized what a positive person she is. It was the episode where she announced that she was going to be the new judge on American Idol. I was intrigued by everything she did..danced with the audience, called her employee who was on maternity leave to catch up, spoke with Katharine Hiegl (sp??) about adopting a baby, and talked about her anniversary weekend with her wife. For an hour I wasn't pitying myself or crying. I was watching Ellen. I'm not making this up, but after the show was over I didn't cry the rest of the day. I honestly believe that the Ellen show was just a breath of fresh air that I needed to clear my head for the day. Thanks Ellen, for impacting my day..can't wait to see you on Idol!